The Wanted. And I Oh So Want Them Too!!

I was lazing around watching TV as usual when I spotted this group of guys with nice voices singing a wonderful song live. 1st thing that came into my mind was I LOVE THAT SONG and oooohhhh...They're not that bad looking either!!  Woah! Handsome and talented??? Sign me up!! So, here are a few songs and pictures for you to drool over ( actually there's nothing to drool about coz they just look like well...Guys!!) and listen to by this new band called "The Wanted". Enjoy!

My favourite song of all three. All Time Low.I can totally relate to this song.

Heart Vacancy

Gold Forever

Let It Go. Fly With The Wind

My mind was in a war zone for these past few days. I NEVER cried in front of people(except when I'm watching emotional movies)because to me crying is a sign of weakness so NEVER show your weaknesses to people but damn! For the 1st time I failed. I was in a battle of emotions that I really need to go somewhere peaceful, some place where there is someone who will willingly and always guide me no matter what situation I'm in. So, I went to the only place I know that brings so much peace to my heart, mind and soul- Seck Kia Eenh.


I took a book in the Shrine Hall, brought it home and read it. Ahhhh...Perfect! It was just what I needed. The words in the book are so true, meaningful and so awakening that all of a sudden I found myself smiling. Suddenly, all the hatred and anger in me vanished in thin air. Therefore I've decided to share with you the new happiness I've found and the priceless teachings I've learnt. This is especially for you my dearest sister. I know you're going through a hard time now just like I do so I hope this will make you strong and take away all your pain. Love you alot!=)


Everything in this world is impermanent. Same goes to happiness and sorrow, good times and bad times. Only fools will wish for good things to last for eternity or think that bad moments will forever continue to be bad. When you're in a happy and good moment, don't expect it to last forever and don't be sad if it ends because like I said nothing is permanent. Cherish and enjoy every second of it and when it ends, let it go, let it fly away with contentment and joy. When you're in a bad time, accept it and deal it with grace. Let those bad moments go, let it fly with the wind. Sooner or later, things will get better. As you all know, life is like a roller coaster ride. Sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down. When you're up, you won't stay there forever and same goes when you're down, you won't stay down forever.


Don't dwell in sadness, anger and frustration, and don't attach yourself with defilements. Don't be stupid! There is no use in getting angry or staying angry all the time because the only person hurting is you not others. ( I'm learning to control my anger now after reading this from the book.)


Metta is the most important thing you have to learn in life. Metta is the boundless and unconditional love that we radiate to all beings. Metta is "simple love" because we love without attaching conditions and without expecting anything in return. I came across a beautiful saying by St Francis of Assisi in the book. It said: Lord, Grant that I may not so much seek to be loved than to love. Another one that totally blew me away is words written by Wystan Hugh Auden, that is: 'We are here on earth to do good for others. What the others are here for, I don't know.' Therefore, treat others well like how you want others to treat you. Even if someone hurts you in any way, don't wish them bad. Throw all the hatred and anger away. Keep that love and kindness in your heart no matter what, for it will glow and shine through your eyes, and radiate through your face. This is your best "cosmetics" to look beautiful. Let the anger and hatred go and fly with the wind. This will give you your everlasting inner peace and happiness.=)  


So after thinking deeply and thoroughly about the situation I'm in, I no longer am angry to the people who hurt me so much. To the people who hurt me deeply, I don't wish you bad. In fact, I don't feel anything at all anymore. Starting today, I'm going to radiate metta to all the people I'm with.   

The World Is Ending Soon,And So I've Been Told.

Is the world really coming to an end next year? I hope not but judging from all the endless and unexpected catastrophes that are happening to our world nowadays; for example like the unexpected Tsunami and earthquake in Japan that took thousands of innocent lives and left others homeless and injured both physically and emotionally, I'm pretty sure it is. Most of you will seriously look back at your life and think about what you have or have not done. Some may nervously find that they have not done anything significant in their lives or even realizing one of their many dreams and wishes. However, for the minority who is fortunate enough to live their dreams and don't really care about living or dying as they are already content with their lives,well, apocalypse doesn't really bother them much. To be honest, I have always thought deeply about my life and I even before the word 'apocalypse' started to spread like wild fire. From time to time I would stop and reflect on myself and the life I'm living. Looking back, I can honestly say that there are still so many things I have not done whether it is minor or huge.The life I'm living now, well... there is nothing much to say. I was trying real hard to recall the things I've done for the past 20 years of my life; something that I'm really proud of and can proudly share with the people surrounding me but all I got was a big fat 0. I realised that all the things I wish to do before I die are all left unchecked. Even the simplest things like playing in the rain-which I cannot really do now unless I want my skin to corrode or get cancer, screaming my lungs out on top of the mountain or just riding round town aimlessly on a bike are just mere dreams. Don't get me wrong. By bike I mean motor not bicycle. Do you want me to die cycling?? The clock is ticking fast so do what your heart desires- and take note that I'm not encouraging negativity here only the good stuff your heart tells you to do. Tell all the people you love that you sincerely love them before it's too late and if you like someone and you don't have the courage to say it to them, well, it's now or never. What do you got to lose? If you have anything you are dying to say to anybody, speak now because the things you will regret the most are the things left unsaid. (but think wisely before you speak though) Live your dreams no matter how small they might be. And... The world does not revolve around YOU AND YOU ONLY so leave a positive impact in other people's lives too and most importantly stay happy always!

Thanks For The Memories!

The first time I saw you was back in Lower 6. There was something about you that really caught my eye. You really have style. Even with your school uniform on you looked cool and punk.Honestly, you looked best in that.=) You're a really quiet and cool guy and I didn't know your name back then. You added me on FB and everything else started. I guess the only reason we knew each other was through FB and we only communicate there, not in school. We exchanged our numbers- also on FB and started to sms frequently. I like messaging you alot! And most of the time we would sms each other till 4am. You were really fun to chat with but in person you were a whole new person- quiet and awkward. I guess you were more comfortable chatting through FB and phone rather than in person. I was really an emo girl back in Form 6. Hated everything and almost everyone surrounding me and you were the only friend who cheered me up and I thank you for that. When my mum met with an accident and I had transportation problem to tuition, I asked for your help and you willingly helped me,and I thank you for that too! Actually, I could ask a few other friends to help me but i chose you because I really wanted to get to know you better. You helped me sincerely for months and never asked for anything in return. You were always there in my darkest hour. You were my superman. That was when I realised you were really an amazing guy and had no twisted games planned in your head. If I wanted to go anywhere after tuition you would send me and even during CNY you willingly drove all the way from your house and took me all the way to a friend's house for a visit- it was really far from my house actually. You're super smart and always hide your feelings deep inside your heart; way too deep sometimes that I couldn't really figure you out most of the time and sometimes I got really annoyed. You are not drop dead gorgeous and some might find you not good looking at all but I don't really care because your inner beauty shines so bright and beautiful that I found myself enchanted by you. I am not the type of girl who has the ultimate confidence to tell someone about my feelings. I rather keep it to myself than to let you know how I feel. And I'm also the traditional type of girl who thinks that guys are the ones who should make the 1st move. I didn't know how you felt about me and I really wanted to know but I never asked. The only move I made was telling you how wonderful you are and if you really took notice, all the little things I had done or said to you that were easily ignored were the ones that showed that you are important to me. Eventhough we are not close anymore and for some reasons which I don't even know, you pushed me away so far and stop communicating with me, I still think you are a wonderful person and I was really lucky to have known you. You sincerely are one of the people around me whom I will always cherish and have a place in my heart.  You still keep running through my head every now and then but I believe that things happen for a reason and maybe you're just not the guy with a white horse. Maybe we're just not meant to be. Maybe there is someone great waiting for me in the future- my soulmate. I believe He is saving the best for last for me so no worries and don't rush. Enjoy your single life to the max now. Right? *wink* I dedicate this post especially for you but seriously i hope you never read this because it's too obvious that it was you i was talking about. I hope I will always remain in your memory and I wish you all the best in your life and may you have all the happiness you deserve. Peace! XD  

Beauty Or Brain?

Beauty or brain? One of the most common questions asked by people around the world. Let's be honest. How many of you will sincerely choose brain? If you sincerely-cross your heart, choose brain over beauty then two thumbs up for you and the toes too! It's undeniable that most people will be attracted to beautiful things first. No matter how ridiculously smart you are or how amazingly beautiful you are in the inside, people will always, ALWAYS see and judge you from the outside first then the inside. And so they said from the appearance first then to the content. Just take the simplest examples from your everyday life. When you catch someone walking down the street with an amazing figure and perfect look, and another one with a not-so-perfect face, which one will you be attracted to first? Which one will u intentionally (to me annoyingly) call and disturb or maybe just quietly tell your friends around you to look and get all horny?- In my term horny=gatal. I experience this at work everyday with my Myanmar friends (they're the ones who always look at the pretty and sexy girls) that I find it really annoying so the best solution is to be just like them. I would tell them which customers or passers-by are handsome and you will die laughing when you see how annoyed they are with me. I'm just letting them taste their own medicine.hehe..>.< but i don't think they realise that. Another example is when you're in a place full of people, who will you approach? Someone dashingly beautiful or handsome, or someone just plain looking and not attractive? This one is easy. This happens in movies all the time. Yes, you can't blame people for acting this way because we're all born this way. But just imagine yourself born with a face that by just looking at you once is enough or with a body that people quietly criticise or laugh at your back. How would you feel? Just like anybody else you would definitely want some attention from the opposite sex once in awhile right? If everybody follows the 'tradition' appearance first personality later then I don't think people will ever know our personalities and what we're made of. When people say that they like or are attracted to me, I can't help but wonder if they really like me for who I truly am or it is just because of my appearance. I'm not saying that I'm beautiful but what I got from guys I only knew for a few months lately is 'you're very beautiful. I like you alot/ I love you.' It kills me to the core to hear that. I'm flattered that people find me beautiful( to be honest I always have self-esteem problem) but seriously?!?! If I were to look unattractive in any way would they still fall for me? Imagine this happening to you. How would you react? Will you accept them as your boyfriend if they only like you for how you look? A guy who loves me for who I am, loves my personality, who finds my flaws beautiful and would still love me no matter how ugly I may look and loves both my outer and inner beauty, would definitely be on top of my list and have the key to my heart. Do you want others to see your appearance first before anything else comes along? Treat people like how you want to be treated. This will be the lesson for me to learn too. A lesson not to be shallow minded. So are you in?    

Story Of Us

CHAPTER 1

      I’m the type of girl who thinks less is more, your typical girl-next-door, never show and say out what I truly feel, am never overly confident with myself- neither appearance nor abilities, shy but can be outspoken at times, timid, always in control of my emotions, never emotionless yet never get overly excited and my idea of the perfect date definitely does NOT include going out for a movie, instead I would rather go to the theme park and have a wonderful time playing, strolling down the beach or perhaps just lying on the green grass watching the twinkling stars with my other half- IF I could find one. I’m not the fairytale princess kind of girl so take note of the capital ‘if.’ 

  

CHAPTER 2:

          Phew!! Time flew like a jet plane. Summer came and ended just like things should be and here I was celebrating my 19^th birthday with my ever so lovely family. I like to keep my birthday simple and personal. What other way to celebrate your birthday than to celebrate it with your loved ones? The week after was my best friend, Anne’s birthday party. She had been my one and only best friend since I was 7. I used to be a very shy and quiet girl when I was little and Anne was the first person who talked to me on my first day of school. She was so full of life and outspoken, and without being asked she immediately took her pink little bag with butterfly prints on the lining of the zip and sat beside me in class. I adored her since the first day we met. She invited everybody she knew which meant almost everybody in our small little town. I wore my best yellow dress and curled my long black hair for the first time ever. I never really put on any make up so I ended up asking my sister to help me with that. As I arrived at the party, the place was already crowded with people. So many familiar faces were there. Even the school cafeteria lady was there!

I wished Anne happy birthday and gave her her gift which I made myself for the entire week. I knitted a green scarf for her with our initials embedded together in a rose which was carried by a white dove. She loved roses and doves!

      I was standing alone when I spotted a guy with dark hair and beautiful blue eyes across the room. There was something so familiar about this guy. His angelic sparkling blue eyes struck me like lightning. I saw those eyes before. I tried recalling every person I knew but his face seemed vague in my memory. Our eyes met and time stood still for a moment. It suddenly felt like there were only two of us in the room. We walked towards each other and he started to introduce himself. His name was Ethan. We started to talk and we clicked instantly. We talked all night long and did not realize that it was already 11.35pm and we had to leave. We tried to prolong the time, doing our best to just come up with any stupid reason to stay just a little bit longer. Finally at 12.40 am we said our goodbyes. We did not exchange our numbers. We decided to make a deal that if we were meant for each other, we would meet again one day by surprise. Boy, you didn’t know how much I prayed after that unforgettable night that we would meet again soon. That night I couldn’t shut my eyes. His face and the way he looked straight into my eyes like a laser beam when I talked to him enchanted me. Growing up I never really believed in fairytales and happily ever after. I don’t fantasize about romance and prince charming the entire time. For me those things are just make-believe. A white shining armor riding on a white horse suddenly comes and sweeps you off your feet? Who on earth believed that? But after meeting him my negative perceptions on happy endings and fairytales vanished in a split second in the midnight mist. There was something real familiar about him and his charming eyes and I was still trying to figure it out. 

CHAPTER 3

      A year went by and I did not see him. I started to lose hope and convinced myself that maybe we were just not meant for each other. Maybe my perceptions about fairytales and happy endings from the very beginning were true after all. There was no such thing as fairytales. What was I thinking? Who was I kidding in the first place? So I went through my days trying real hard to move on and get Ethan out of my head. Eventually, I made it. 

      But lately, a buried childhood memory kept flashing trough my head. I remember the first time we met just like it happened yesterday. I was having a wonderful day walking at a street market with my mum when I got lost in a sea of people. A minute seemed eternity when I searched for my mum. I could not hold my tears any longer and there I stood in the middle of the crowded street bawling my eyes out. Suddenly a hand touched my shoulder and I looked up. There, a boy about my age with dark hair was standing in front of me and was staring straight at me with his angelic blue eyes. His consoling and kind face made me stop crying almost immediately. All of a sudden, I didn’t know why, I felt safe. It seemed impossible that time for 2 short little kids who looked like they had been swallowed by sea of people to go searching for a person. So we decided to just sit at the pavement and wait for my mum to come searching for me. He accompanied me there patiently until my mum found me. That was the last time I saw his face.

      “Oh God! Is he really who I think he is??” That was the first thing that came out from my mouth absent-mindedly when I realized what had happened. Ethan was the boy. Those angelic blue eyes... It was Ethan. I felt a sudden rush in my heart and mind. Millions of questions kept running in my head. Should I be happy that I finally knew who he was? What if we never laid eyes on each other again? Should I go searching for him now but how? Should I just forget him and move on? If things were not meant to be then maybe they weren’t meant to be, right?? That night I prayed that I would meet Ethan again.

            

My 1st Blog EVER!! =)

After weeks of trying to create a blog of my own finally i've made it.Eureka! I have to admit sometimes I do have dumb blonde moments. Lol.. Ok,I'll start by introducing myself.. I'm a petite girl with dark hair and BIG eyes. I'm just your typical girl-next-door kind of girl. i have nothing special to brag about, i have very big appetite that some ppl say i have black hole in my stomach-i had my heavy dinner earlier on at work and now i'm enjoying McDonald's while writing my 1st ever post- just called for delivery about an hour ago.haha..gosh!realizing that McD food is getting smaller! sometimes i get overly emotional and sensitive,i have anger management problem and am trying my best to control it, love animals, love my family to death, easily fall for someone BUT I DON'T BELIEVE IN FAIRYTALES,easily nervous,shy at times-depends on the situation and mood,talkative but not all the time, always hoping for the best but expecting the worst-that's how i avoid myself from being heart-broken, i'm a simple girl and sometimes can be considered as boring,love reading storybooks and hate fakers. oh ya,i'm not the type of girl who will share my feelings,problems and thoughts verbally so i love to pen down my feelings.So this blog will be my personal diary and voice. when you read this and it happens to be about you,then you will know but don't worry,if it's negative stuff then names won't be revealed here.So let's just say that i'm your Taylor Swift but in blogging form.lol..but on 2nd thought, who the hell will care to read my blog? so maybe names will be revealed here just for me to see and remember.=)