Stop This Plane

No I'm not colour blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind but...
I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this plane I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly won't someone stop this plane

Don't know how else to say it, don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own

Stop this plane
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't but honestly won't someone stop this plane

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this plane
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
Melody, honestly we'll never stop this train

See once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
'til you cry when you're driving away in the dark.

Singing stop this plane I want to get off and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I'll never stop this plane

I Have A Dream

Dear, Melody.
Never be afraid to dream and you'll go far.

Most of us dare to dream but are apprehensive or simply hesitant to chase them. Some dreams seem so near to grab but yet so far to reach. Some seem just too hard to realise that we choose to ignore them and go after the ones that are more realistic and "normal". However, those dreams will forever be embedded deep down in us that we will never be fully satisfied with life until we can taste the sweetness of those dreams, smell the sweet and aromatic smell of living your dreams and feel the warm sensation of finally getting what you wish for and want all your life. Although some things we desire in life seem impossible to achieve, you'll never know if you never try. Be prepared to face people who will, without you asking, comment on the choice you make. The more they give their "reasonable and logical" thinking, the more dampened your spirit will be. All those doubts and questions will start lingering in your head until finally if you're not strong enough, you'll quit. If you want something so badly, don't let other people's words affect you because believe it or not, if they were in your shoes, they too will chase after their dreams even though those dreams were a million miles away.

Typical comments made by others are:

1. Huh?? Why you wanna be _____??? In Malaysia got no future one you know? You're living in Malaysia leh not US. (or any other countries) Be realistic abit.
2. You sure you wanna be that? Very hard you know? Better think properly. (and they will list out for you endless reasons why you shouldn't follow your dream)
3. Eh, you know or not that course no use one leh.. Many people take that course and end up graduate already no job. 
4. Girls/ Boys (mostly girls because just admit it, humans are very skeptical and sexist) better don't take that course or do that job. Very difficult leh. Girls more suitable to be this and that. (as if  they know what our capabilities are)
5. Why want to take that one? Wait come out from uni your salary will be very little you know?

There are too many common and cliche comments to list so for you who's been through the same thing, you know what I mean. 

When I was little, I thought success was all about making big money, having ginormous house and expensive car. Basically, success meant living life luxuriously. I soon realise that money is not everything and it cannot bring you happiness. Success is not measured by material stuff but about living your dream, chasing after your own happiness. Now that I truly know what success means I don't want to waste my life chasing after papers. When you're dead, you definitely can't bring all those things to your grave and absolutely not up to heaven. I've found my true passion in life and for once in my life I am not going to accept any objections or protests from anyone. So, in a few years time I will follow my dreams and find my own meaning of success and happiness.

I'm proud of my sister that she finally dares to make her dream into a reality. Her life has been a plan made by others all this while and finally she mustered every ounce of confidence she had to break away from the chains and cocoon wrapped around her. Although it is not certain yet that she will get what she wants, at least she has the courage to try. Everybody dares to dream but not everybody has the courage and determination to chase after their dreams. Here's to you, Jo.

A piece of good and wise advice from my relative was to close your eyes for 5 minutes and see what is/are the thing/s you want in life. So, close your eyes now. What do you really really want?

XOXO,
Melody. 

Singing And Dancing My Heart In

I went to watch Glee Concert in 3D with a bunch of my Form 6 friends (Long Choy, Ivan, Wen Chiang, Ben, Vince and Chui Shan) and to tell you the truth, the movie was awesome although there are slight eenny meeny tiny problems with it. Let's list them:

1. Seriously, I paid RM17 per ticket and I expect to watch the whole concert but what I got was half concert and half stories about prom, dwarf, gay and not slim human beings. I know Glee inspires a lot of people all around the the world but come on, this is supposed to be a concert. There are already enough inspiring stories on TV and Internet so there is no need for them to put another long slot of inspiring stories in the movie. If you really want to do so, just do another segment about it on TV not cinemas!! Btw, I have nothing against inspiring stories about life and I love them a lot but seriously, this is a concert!!! I just wanna have fun!!
2. And again, I paid RM17 for the ticket and what I got was the edited version of the concert. And I really mean fully edited, edited too much that the concert shown turned out to be half of what the real concert was really like. The ridiculous part is that if you want to see the full version of the concert, you have to buy the DVD. Wth? I paid RM17 for goodness sake, RM17!! (and yes, I'm stingy!)
3. Due to the atmosphere and place I couldn't dance like no one's watching, sing like no one's listening and put my hands in the air like I just don't care. So, instead of singing and dancing my heart out, it was more like singing and dancing my heart in.

Anywho, the movie was still great and I got to see my Blaine a.k.a Darren Criss performed our love songs, "Silly Love Song" and "Teenage Dream" and also the very awesome "Raise Your Glass".  And the other glee cast members did a very good job. Brava, Brava!! They seriously rule!! So, all you Gleeks out there, please do watch the movie. It's a must watch movie/concert of the year and trust me you will never regret it.


OK, back to my outing. So, after the show we went to have our early dinner and after that Long Choy and I went to Ivan's house and guess who was first one to greet us with so much enthusiasm? It was Ivan's dog, Teddy!! 2 words to describe him- enthusiastic and super cute!!!! Makes me wanna have a dog even more!! What's not to love about dogs? They are man's best friends and they're super adorable!!! Ivan's mum was upstairs and Long Choy and me had decided earlier on in the car that we were going to pull a prank on his mum. FYI, Ivan's mum had never seen me before and so did I and yeah, I am proud to say that I am mischievous. Okay, okay, it was not really a prank that you see on TV or Youtube but this one was a verbal prank. So, when his mum finally came down Long Choy greeted her and introduced me as Ivan's girlfriend. Guess what did I say? I said "Hi, ma!" If only I could take a picture of her face at that time, I bet you will laugh your socks off! Her face was seriously priceless!! She was so shocked that her face suddenly turned clueless and blur. LOL!!! And we did the same thing to his dad when his dad came home after work. My other friends who joined us later did not know about the prank and they were laughing their ass off when they heard me calling him Pa (Papa). And so 'Papa' was also shocked as expected because a girl who has never been there before and was never introduced to the family came in and all of a sudden called him that. I left at 10pm and the rest of my friends headed for a karaoke session. It's already late and I'm not a big fan of karaoke session so for this next activity, I'll pass. Good night everyone and hope you guys had a wonderful day today too!

XOXO,
Melody.

Things I Don't Understand

Things I don't understand:

1. People picking their nose in the car. Hello!!! Everyone can see whatever you're doing!! Don't do it unless your windows are tinted.
2. Guys having handbags. Handbags were once only for girls. Have no idea what this world is turning into.
3. In Sims 3, we can't build a pool in the house.
4. There is no cupcake or macaron shop in Malacca.
5. Some chinese girls like switching their voices into the 'cute' mode. It's a popular trend in Taiwan so lots of girls are following it but seriously girls, it's not cute.
6. Asian guys are turning into Korean stars in terms of fashion. Some clothes are just meant to be kept in the closet. 
7. Designed hair clips. They look cute on little girls but adults? Not so much. *exceptional for floral design hair clips but depends*
8. In Sims 3, other houses are way bigger and better but the ones left for us are nothing but small and confined. 
9. Astro is censoring almost every show and song played. Wth? What's the point of paying so  much if it's becoming more like the local TV stations. No matter how much they censore it, people can still watch it from the Internet so what's the point?
10. You need to be tall to be air steward/air stewardess and have perfect vision to be pilot. Shucks! That just makes my already limited career options to be lesser by two.
11. TV productions are wasting so much money producing nonsense reality shows.
12. People making lots of noises in the cinema.
13. Movie producers all around the world are going crazy about making 3D movies after the huge success of 'Avatar' in 3D. I miss my 2D films and they cost lesser.
14. Malaysian drivers are crazyyyyyyyyy!!!!
15. Most Government services sucks.
16. People are turning meaner and ruder each day.
17. Divorce rates are skyrocketing. What happened to 'till death do us apart'?
18. Viruses spreading in FB.
19. Spam.
20. Discipline teachers are evil. Yes, they are. Be extra careful if they're single especially if they're in their forties. They tend to be extra grumpy and easily agitated by this time.
21. Rude teachers. Aren't they suppose to be role models in school?
22. People being cruel to animals. Where are their hearts? Animals are supposed to be treated with love and respect. 
23. I'm terrible at sports and I can't run. Believe it or not I always came in last when it comes to running throughout my 13 years of schooling.
24. Malaysian comedies. It ain't funny.
25. Almost all commercials have songs. I know music is in everyone's soul but seriously, do they need to go this far?
26. Some guys like to keep their beard only on their chins a.k.a the 'chin strip' or the 'goatee'. What is wrong with them? Don't they realise they look exactly like a goat???  

These are just some random thoughts from me. I come in peace and have no intentions in hurting anyone so relax if I hit your sensitive spot without myself knowing. Peace.

XOXO,
Melody

Glee Project

I watched ''Glee Project'' for the first time today and I'm loving it! Watching real people with real and raw talent are just so inspirational and intriguing. It not only makes my eyes glued to the TV but also makes my eyes turn green with envy!! Just to inform you in advance, if you don't have any talent in singing/ acting like me, please do control your eyes. Hehe..=P I love watching people who can really sing live. If you have these kinds of talent it means that life is treating you good. If only I have a big voice instead of a loud one I'd definitely sign myself up for the audition. I can feel a knife in my lungs when the casting director said that the ''Glee Project'' audition is, I mean was ="( opened to EVERYBODY worldwide! There goes my chance...Watching the contestants hitting the high and big notes effortlessly drives me crazy!! How could a normal, regular human being possibly sing that way??? This applies to all the other stars who can really sing their lungs out, hitting all the right notes without cracking their voices one bit. *green gooey stuff is coming out from my eyes. where's the tissue?*

So I would definitely recommend you to watch it.  It is sooooo much better than all those other nonsense reality shows such as ''Toddlers & Tiaras'' (arghhhh!!!! makes me dislike children even more), ''Real Housewives'' (do real housewives act this way? tell me, do they??!!) and ''MTV Sweet Sixteen'' (those kids are nothing but brats). If you love watching something meaningless, then go for it. Otherwise, stay away from these shows and you'll save yourself from destroying your TV. Why don't settle for something that's worth your time like ''GLEE PROJECT'' for instance? If you love Glee, you'll love this. =)

Born This Way

Never good enough. That explains everything. Sometimes, no matter how hard you try and no matter what you do you'll never be good enough in some people's eyes and you'll feel more crappy if those people are the ones you want to impress the most. Sometimes I wonder what must I do to make them be proud of me. I was never a troubled kid, I don't mix with the wrong crowd, I don't smoke neither do I take drugs, I got decent grades in my major exams. What else do they want from me? I've done almost everything I possibly could but some people will never notice that. Even now when I'm on my way to entering university taking a good course, I'm still never gonna be good enough. I'm tired of being compared to someone else. I'm tired of people telling me how great others are and that how I am not that type of person they wanted me to be. I'm fed up of people telling me who and what I should become.

And so I realised that whatever I do to impress them is useless. You can try for a thousand years but you will never be that person others expect you to be. If you try your whole life trying to please others and be someone else but yourself, you will soon figure out that you're actually throwing your whole life away. I found this quote to be totally true; 'God has given you one face and you make yourself another- William Shakespeare'. Almost all of us are trying our best to mould a person we're not because to most of us being ourselves is never good enough and so we're trying so hard to mould a person who would be the epitome of perfection to everybody else surrounding us. We're so carried away to meet the expectations of others that we forgot that this is our lives that we're living in. We're too carried away that instead of chasing our own happiness, we are actually trying to fulfill the "happiness" of others. Remember that you are who you are. Don't try to be someone else just so you could fit into a mould others prepare for you. It is nothing wrong with being true to yourself and leading you own life, making your own decision. You can only improve yourself and be a better version of yourself, not trying or pretending to be someone you're not or doing things you know for sure you dislike. Take for an example; if you're perky and loud, so just be it. That's who you are. You don't have to be all soft-spoken and gentle just because someone ask you to be that way or because everybody else is being that way. Be who you are and appreciate yourself; the way you look, your personalities. Also, you don't have to lead a life that others tell you or have planned for you. If you really love for instance baking and you would love to open a bakery one day but the people surrounding are telling you to be a doctor and are going full force against your dream, all you have to do is have faith in yourself and do the things your heart desire. It is your life not theirs.

So, I am not going to let anybody get to me now. I've done all I can to prove to them that I'm as good as anybody else and that just being me is good enough but if my efforts are not being appreciated, then I rest my case. There is no point trying to live up to their words and I'm happy just being me. There is only one me in this world and there is only one life I'm living. No more trying to change myself to suit other people's taste. I love myself and there will never be anybody else like me. What you see is what you get. So, it's either you take it or leave it. Therefore, to all you people out there, remember you were born an original. Don't die a copy. Peace!  

Dinner At Renaissance

Today me family and I went to Long Feng, Renaissance to have our dinner. As usual we ate too much and now seriously I'm feeling not that great and I wish I could just puke my food out. Not in the mood to tell everything that happened today so I'll just let the pictures speak for themselves. Btw, you will notice that I did not take many pictures of the food we had because we were to engrossed in our food that I had totally forgotten to take the pictures of most of the dishes.

I Will Remember You

There is this girl who is very tall, extremely smart and funny. Her presence will take those grey clouds away immediately. This girl is one of my best friends from secondary school and her name is Priya. They say true friends are hard to find but they lied because I found you.

I loved having her and a few of my besties around back in high school. (You know who you are) The fondest memories were the ones where we would all bring our food during recess and ate together at the back of our school building, facing the graveyard and near to the school toilet. When I think about it, it's funny that we chose that particular place instead of a better one with better view and aroma. That would be our favourite spot; sitting, eating, talking and laughing together. Oh, how I miss those times.

I was and still am not really good in physics and our lessons would always be held in the laboratory. Some of us would be chosen to sit in the front row for thorough supervision and guess who was selected? Me!!!! *patting myself in the back* (proud tears) *sob sob*My physics teacher for some reasons I was not quite sure of, would always and I really mean ALWAYS asked me to stand up and answer his questions or even worse, asked me to go to the front of the class and write the solutions on the blackboard. Yay!!! I was the chosen one again!!! Judging from the countless times I kept being the chosen one, I bet I would already be a super hero by now if this was a super hero movie instead of a regular physics class. So, when I was selected to save the world, ooopppsss! I mean to answer the questions, I would always quietly and carefully looked around at my besties for anwers. Luckily all my besties were the masters of physics so they would happily tell me or should I say signalled and whispered me the answers as if those questions were a cinch. This is just another beautiful yet funny memory that will forever be in my mind and heart.

Priya has been MIA- missing in action for quite some time and to be honest, I am missing her dearly. Fortunatley, about a month ago she suddenly appeared back in Facebook and I was extremely relieved that she was okay but she soon disappeared again a few days later. Today, I received a letter from her. I'm super touched and happy that she doesn't forget about me and even has the heart to write and send me a letter. True friends will always be true friends. This is the letter she sent to me and the content.

Ody is a nickname given to me by my besties and only they can call me that. If you ever dare call me that I will seriously chop off your head, shove it down the toilet bowl and flush it.

 I will keep this forever.

Priya, I just wanna say thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for the letter, thank you for being my good friend and thank you for everything. I'm so lucky and proud to have known you in this life. There will never be another one like you ever. I will be there for you if you'd ever needed someone and I will stand by you. The last time I talked to you, you told me that life was tough but you know what? You're tougher!!! Just stay strong when life gets hard because I know you're a one strong girl. Keep your spirit high and never let the lively girl in you dies. You are a diamond in a rough and you know that. We'll keep in touch soon and remember that I love you!!!
Lots of love, hugs and kisses from me too,
Ody

PS: This song's for you. It's exactly what I wanna say to you.

Nutty Professor? Yeah, Right! Nut Head? That's More Like It.

I went for my medical check-up and I'm glad I did not continue procrastinating. The place was packed like a can of sardine and it took me the whole morning for everything to be completed. If you know me really really well, you would have known that I'm the queen of self-humiliation and I will do something that is real silly and dumb sometimes. I could compile a whole book of all the embarrassing stories in my life if I want to.

So, there is no 'fun' stories to tell today except that when I was asked to pee in a cup for my urine sample (TWICE) I found myself comparing my pee with the others that were on the tray and unsurprisingly my cup was the fullest. Urine sample requires only a small amount of urine because it is usually just to check your urine acidity, whether one is pregnant or not, etc. but judging by the the amount I gave them it was like giving a marathon runner a cup of water to quench their thirst. So what did I do? Take it back and reduce the amount? No no no... I just left it there. The fullest cup wins!! The second time I went to for my 'pee competition', I almost opened the door of something that looked a lot like a refrigerator and put my bottle of urine in it. Cold urine? That's cool! The guy in the room just pointed out the place I was supposed to put my bottle and the blur me of course became a nut head and and thought that he was pointing at the 'refrigerator'. You couldn't believe how many people suddenly screamed "Noooooo" at the same time. That's just wonderful! A good wake-up call for Miss Blurry Melody. I left the room as soon as possible without saying a single word. Medical check-up, checked! Humiliation, checked!

Ready, Get Set, Don't Go

Tomorrow will be exactly 1 month time left for me to savour my moment in my comfort zone. But honestly, my feelings are all jumbled up in a big bowl of emotions. Excitement, anxiety, sadness, curiosity, you name it. As the day approaches, I'm becoming more and more nervous to leave. I'm really starting to freak out. I really have no idea what is in store for me but all I can do is think and head towards positivity. That's the least I can do to keep my spirit high. I've started packing because it is better to do it now than to do it last minute. Last minute anything just spells for disaster. I've bought quite a lot of stuff to bring along to my new "3 years hometown". There are still so many things I have to do before I can breathe a sigh of relief. So for now I think I need an extremely big inhaler to keep my heart beating.